Hmmm... I am shaa liking someone. This my heart will not keep quiet. Don't mind me, he's my TEF mentor...oo. I think the uncle likes me too sha... But MBA biko... He has to spell it out very well... This thing cannot happen to me again...oo
He's a cool dude though... I don't even know him... So, cool can pass for a description. I shaa like how this one is doing me... Its not sharking me like the other ones... Biko, this butterfly thing no dey work... If I catch any butterflies in my stomach I will kill it by strangling.
Let's be going first... Let me leave this one here.
Sunday, 29 March 2020
COVID-19 Post
I actually never thought I would be posting anything with the COVID title. But here I am.
So its time for Lock down and we are all at home. Feels like life has paused. Once again, it seems like I have resumed my impatient search for truth... This is a simulation of what happened last year. Just that last year, I was locked down by finances, but this year, I am locked down by some COVID guy. Its all good.
My vices are beginning to stare me in the face and every moment I keep asking God for grace to go through. In here with my friend, and it seems like I complain in my head about everything she does, the way she talks, the number of times she bathes, the fact that she pays little or no attention to me or my affairs. Its overwhelming. Honestly, I think there is nothing wrong with her... I just think I am overwhelmed. Staying at one place is not and has never been my thing. I am just trusting God to help me overlook certain things.
Again, my spiritual quest has begun again... It almost usually always ends in frustration. I don't even know where to enter from. I listen to sermons, read books, listen to music and sleep unsatisfied. Probably because I wish I can wake up at night to pray... Then I end up snoring into the morning. I feel bad that Peace doesn't try to help me... I have verbalized my frustration to her many times and told her many tines that I need help... But she never wakes me up. It hurts, but I guess expectations from others is also a vice I should curb... I will set an alarm tonight for 02:00pm let's see how it goes.
So its time for Lock down and we are all at home. Feels like life has paused. Once again, it seems like I have resumed my impatient search for truth... This is a simulation of what happened last year. Just that last year, I was locked down by finances, but this year, I am locked down by some COVID guy. Its all good.
My vices are beginning to stare me in the face and every moment I keep asking God for grace to go through. In here with my friend, and it seems like I complain in my head about everything she does, the way she talks, the number of times she bathes, the fact that she pays little or no attention to me or my affairs. Its overwhelming. Honestly, I think there is nothing wrong with her... I just think I am overwhelmed. Staying at one place is not and has never been my thing. I am just trusting God to help me overlook certain things.
Again, my spiritual quest has begun again... It almost usually always ends in frustration. I don't even know where to enter from. I listen to sermons, read books, listen to music and sleep unsatisfied. Probably because I wish I can wake up at night to pray... Then I end up snoring into the morning. I feel bad that Peace doesn't try to help me... I have verbalized my frustration to her many times and told her many tines that I need help... But she never wakes me up. It hurts, but I guess expectations from others is also a vice I should curb... I will set an alarm tonight for 02:00pm let's see how it goes.
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