Story of my Highs and lows

So yesterday, just as I was about to sleep, at about 11:00p.m, I tapped Peace for a resolution chat and the next thing I knew was that I was laying to sleep at 04:00am in the morning. Glory to God, I was able to wake at 07:30, prayed and did my laundry, then set out for WWP... While I was washing, Mr. Attah called to cancel his order for Friday, with claims that he is travelling. I honestly don't believe him, but what will I do?
During the meeting, I was asked to buy food for every member of the group, I did buy for everybody but me. The women were in awe at my decision. I as somewhat numb, but kept asking God to accept my sacrifice. I am hungry for real food, but I am not sure I have got a go ahead to eat. Hmmm... I am a little overwhelmed by the fact that the freezer is about, somehow it wants to affect my peace. I also feel worried about the Saturday program, the juice to profit. What will my lot be? I am a little anxious, but I am casting all my cares on God.
Mr. Alfred asked me to let him know of I need help with my application for TEF, so I am treading carefully. I don't want us to get emotional about this thing and screw up what God is set to do. I release my faith to receive the TEF fund.
I feel exhausted, at the same time I am going to give Mr. Edward his drinks... This is me being deaf to the way I feel. I want to repaint my toe nails and see if i can change my hair. I volunteered to give the marriage school a great touch to the result. Its going to be a huge one for me in terms of work. This morning I felt the Holy spirit reminding me that once upon a time, I wanted to help Pastor Opi and this is a rare privilege, so I will give it my all. My desire is to leave earth empty. That's my heart cry